just so you know.

this year im going to change.
and not for the worse, but for the better.

im starting jubilation again tomorrow.
last time i quit and lost all of my friends.
right now i have one good friend.

instead of letting people push me around all the time.
im gunna let them have the truth.

im gunna become more outgoing.
instead of hiding away in a corner waiting for people to come and talk to me.

and also im going to try and open up more..
i feel like i have to hide myself because im afraid of what will happen and how i will be judged.
how retarded am i?
seriously.

my mental and physical self is going to become better.
as in im going to become more in shape and healthier instead of eating so much junk so much of the time.
an i'm going to start thinking more clearly and positively.
sometimes i look at all the bad in life and forget about the good until i read about something horrible.
it makes my situation look tiny.


by the way. im in love.

with songs.
so many right now are stuck in my head.
they seem to mean so much to me.
and i don't even know why.
it always seems to be the soft ones.


well i think thats all i have for now.
but trust me this thing will be full of my thoughts in no time..