Father, let my heart be after You

11:11
Make a wish.

I don't really wish at that time.. it's more of a prayer.

Anyways, that's irrelevant to what I was actually going to write about. It was just 11:11, that's all.

Ok.
These past few days have sort of been a wake up call.
After I stopped teaching Sunday School and going to Firehouse, I knew I was losing the consistency of God in my life.
I mean, I talk to Him all the time. Every day for sure. But it was getting into His Word and listening to what He had to say to me through that, that was fading out.
I'm really not proud to say that. To say that I drifted away again.

It's a hard realization to deal with.
It hurts to know that I let the world get the best of me again. Key word - again.
I tried so hard to surround myself with people to bring out the best of me, and to get involved with things that do the same. But, when a few complications arose, I backed down and fled.
I'm so sick of running from speed-bumps on the road of life.

I'm trying to be more outgoing. Start being more willing to hang out with people I wouldn't normally hang out with. Do things that make me uncomfortable, but benefit me.

I want to change lives, but if I don't reach out, I won't be able to do that.

I'm starting to think about getting involved again at Firehouse and Sunday School.
It might take a bit of time to really figure out what I'm supposed to do, but I'm going to consider it thoroughly.
I'm asking for prayers of guidance, because I could really use them.

Here's to taking chances and not being afraid of my true potential.