whoa.

well life is definitely confusing me really badly right now.
i was thinking of not trying out for the comp team again because of last year.
but then last year i read something about how clint dempsey gave everything for his sister, the one that gave up her tennis dreams for his soccer dreams, and ended up dying at the age of 16. so then it swept over me, a thought that i should play comp and show what i have instead of backing down from stupid girls.
but then i realized that even though i adore soccer so, SO much. maybe i want to do something else too.
im OBSESSED with american idol and music. like i HAVE to have ipod to keep me up and running. so maybe thats what i want to do one day. american idol i love because it show off talent that may not have ever gotten recognized. david cook originally wasnt gunna try out for american idol but he ended up winning the whole thing. so right there shows you something.
i just think it would be really cool to become a musician, of course i'd have to get over my stage fright, but that can happen, so is there a chance for me too? i think so.

but anyways, my brain overloading on everything that im trying to figure out, what i wanna do and what i need to do.
oh and also, if i play rec soccer, then i could probably get guitar lessons and i was gunna take an acting class with asia this fall.
so there are a lot more possibilities for me.