I'm Lost

I thought I had it all figured out.
I thought I would be going into Accounting, enjoying it, thinking I had a good plan for where I was going to go career-wise.
Then I got to my Accounting class, I talked to my sister-in-law, and I started thinking.

I don't want to be an accountant, and the whole concept about accounting is not at all appealing to me. I thought I wouldn't mind it because it's just a part of business. But I do. Because it's not something I enjoy.
I want to do something I enjoy.
But not just that, either. I want to do something I enjoy, as well as having others benefit from it and make their lives a little brighter. You know?
That's what I want to do.
I don't think that's in accounting...

I have no idea what I want to do, but I think that's ok.
I know I want to go into Business, I'm just not sure what exactly.

I've decided that what all this is trying to tell me is that I just need to pray about it.
I need to focus on what GOD wants me to do. Not myself.

Also, I need to look at the things that make me, me. I need to take a look at the things I enjoy, and then see how I can use them for my main objective; enjoying it while helping others.

Ok, God. It's all in Your hands.

Bucklin' Down

I grew up hearing that saying all the time. If you don't speak country [or southern, or whatever you wanna call it], it means, basically, to get down to business.
I think it's about time to buckle it on down.
With life and growing up and doing more than I choose to do, I mean.
This past week, for some reason, I, somewhat subconsciously, started doing more chores than I usually do [that means whoever had lunch the other day got off easy,] cooked more [and cleaned up!] and wasn't as reluctant to actually doing other people's jobs. It was slightly weird, but I had a pretty good feeling about it.
For a while now, I have tried to become the mature adult I should be by now [or at least, start to be by now.] It hasn't always followed through as planned, but there are some days where I feel like I am becoming more responsible. This week, for instance, I felt as if I was finally pulling my own weight, along with others. My only problem is my attitude. I still gotta fix that part, then I'm all good. I hope. Ha ha.
In doing so [taking on more responsibility, that is,] I started to think about my future a lot more. I used to never do that because I was so scared of not being prepared enough for it. However, now, I'm not so much like that anymore. It's pretty nice.
Anyways, I started putting pieces together. Like, how what I was doing right then was preparing me for my future and would benefit me in later years. Like washing dishes, for instance. We don't have a dish washer. Or, we do; seven of them. For all of you who are taking a while to catch on, that means we wash dishes...by hand. [GASP!] We've done it as long as I've been alive, and with nine people still living at home, that's quite a few dishes. So, back to my point, washing all those dishes, for all these years, is actually training me for when I'm older, either living on my own, or married with kids [I sincerely hope so. I do NOT want to be a creepy ol cat lady. Ew.] that I am going to have to support them by keeping the house clean. Plus, knowing how to wash dishes by hand, and get them clean, is really gunna help when [if we even have one] the dishwasher breaks.
That goes hand in hand with baking. I've been able to see quite a few ways how all my baking/cooking will benefit me in the future...

• I want to own a bakery 
• It will feed me family [and me!]
• It's a good way to make nice with neighbors ;)
• I HAVE A RIDICULOUS OBSESSION WITH BAKING

Yes, that last one had to be in caps. I really do. It's slightly awful when trying to eat healthy.. Oh well! I'll just learn to bake healthy stuff that actually tastes good. No big deal.

So yea. It's kind of awesome that I haven't been so freaked out about the future, but rather looking at it with a glimpse of hope for what I would like it to be.

Oh one more thing. I have to live out in the country. Or, if that can't happen. I have to have at least an acre.

No. 

That would kill me. Give me at least two acres.
Hmm. Well I sure do hope I didn't bore you too much. 

Anyways,  have a dandy day [or night. It's almost 11:30 p.m. here]!

~Hannah

Whoops

Right when I say I'm gunna start writing again, I fail...

Well, to update you all on the past few days, here's a little run down:

• I decided I didn't like the path I was going down as far as the book goes, so I'm taking a break getting my thoughts figured out first.
• I am going to start a devotional series.
• SCOTTY WON!!!!! [American Idol, my friends]
• I decided I really didn't like half the books in the 1001 books to read before you die book. I'd rather just stick with the one's I know and love.
• I spent more money.. I gotta stop this chronic spending...
• I locked my keys in my car in Titusville [30 minutes from my house], and I didn't have a hide-a-key.
• I drove all over Tarnation taking people places.
• Whoops. I just remembered I didn't fill up the water jugs for my mom. My bad.

That's pretty much it for now. Nothing too exciting happened

Now, I'm off to make aprons and bread! I'll try and post some pictures once I'm done.

Oh, and I am still going to do the video post once a week, I just gotta get a few things down first. 

Till next time, 

Bye!

~Hannah